Once Upon a Time, I wanted to be 170

The main point here being, people change, over time and circumstances.

Yes, you read it right, I wanted to grow to the height of 170cm but no longer so (I can't even if I still want to anyway). There's many other reasons as to why the change of mind but meh let's skip listing 'em down.
Let's just say that I've grown to be grateful for my current height.


Also, I have recently decided to retake personality test and wow I was actually ESFJ-A (Consul) back in early 2016, what even happened. But well the recent one came out as ESTJ-A (Executive) HAHAHAH why am I not surprised. In real comparison I just went a tad bit different of all that has changed: more from relying on my feelings to my thinking, less extroverted, more intuitive than observant, more judging than prospecting, and more assertive than ever. My percentages have always been very balanced and I take it as a good thing. And due to this as well, many descriptions become either or neither nor. Honestly I don't think personality test works on me anymore.

early 2016

late 2017

On the other hand, I have been disappearing from here for 8 MONTHS.

Around the end of September, I told myself that I have to cut my slack and start working soon and decided that to be happening starting from October, thus before starting off again, I went to reread all of my previous posts, including a few drafts that I've never published and damn, I really don't know what to feel. There really are so many things that I wanted to do but end up not doing I want to slap myself so much WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. Some photos in the older posts has disappeared from their original links and idek what are they to recover them back so it will stay as it is for now.

People say "not all who wander is lost".

Idek if I am/was lost or not. I spent most of this year thinking about what am I actually doing with my life. Am I doing the right thing? Should I do it my way or the supposed way? Am I really enjoying this? I have actually said this once here like a year ago that I really need to get back to working on having more passion but guess it's not really achieved yet.

In the end, the only thing that I'm sure of is that I still have so much more things that I want to learn and improve on. And I really need to get myself going on about 'em, one by one. And so I shall. Let's see how my planning this time around will turn out.


Other news: I'm graduating really soon~! If nothing goes wrong, all my classes shall end this year *fingers crossed, nothing will go wrong*. Which is also why I really should get back to being slightly more passionate with my life before I get drowned into work life *fingers crossed, let's hope I don't get drowned in work life*.


Honestly, this post is kinda boring because it's really just to let y'all know I'm not leaving here to rot just yet. I guess I really needed time to really go through my thoughts.


Til then! :)